whatev

Not one of my lucky days it seems. Being annoying and getting annoyed - all the same. But fortunately, it wasn't the case in my classes today. AND in the nasty common room! Satisfaction with a big O!!!

friends, away - 2

A friend has attempted to make me feel guilty. I thought she was just jealous of my attention to another friend. The hell with that.

friends, away - 1

Hiya! How's it going? It's a greeting I longed to say to all of my chatting buddies. They're nowhere to be found now, because I'm no longer around myself. I sent postcards to a few folks, I don't know if they've received them. One of the cards had a T-Mobile SIM card (which used to be mine) attached on it. I hope it didn't get lost on the way to Mona. And Mona... I was quite relieved things didn't go too wrong between us in our last days together, though I can't say the main problem has been solved. I don't care that much, now that I'm away. She can have whatever thoughts she has about me, and it doesn't matter anymore. Besides, "dirt is always smeared all over my face," and I'm kinda ok with that. If there's anything I still want to cry about, it's the fact that I can no longer spend the night in Eta and Widya's apartment. Oh, those ol' sweet days with my dearest 'sistas'. Eta, who's always been the best listener and confidante, no matter what winds and currents my crazy mind has. Widya, who always has that little space for me to snug in. I seriously miss them it hurts me.

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Apa benar kamu sudah merasa baikan? Setelah kata-kata di pesan yang kautulis untuknya? Yang kau perkirakan tak akan berbalas? The cookies in the jar are tempting, aren't they? Itukah nilaimu baginya? Semacam holiday on an island? Pertanyaan-pertanyaan ini tak kan berjawab. Pertanyaan-pertanyaan gadis itu tak kan berjawab juga. Does it make you feel better? Does it?

Things happen for a reason. Gitu katanya. Jadi semua ini yang sudah terjadi begitu juga kan pastinya? Berkutat memformat thesisku, di bagian akhir Acknowledgments aku tulis namanya. Thank you for showing me both sides of "novelty."

one shocker came after another. i'm tired. if you are bored of this, i am even more. H.A.M.P.A.

and again

national brokenheart anthem :)

KLa Project unplugged. Tak Bisa Ke Lain Hati.