i was happy when i found this

look how the lyric and the guy's expressions seem to go their own ways. it's hilarious.

http://www.cs.rice.edu/~ssiyer/minstrels/poems/639.html

my absence

... is due to several things. I moved out from my Meadowbrook apartment to a temporary place until I go home. Moving wasn't as handy as I wanted it to be, but I managed... with help from some friends. Then there's thesis revision. It was minor, but it felt like having to eat an expired yoghurt. Won't kill you literally. But. And of course, breaking up is never easy. Though I'd say I am ok, I still can't get over it. Again, I am fine. But.

finally

He came and all. Still unable to complete the missing links. Lame excuses that didn't add up. Let's make it simple. You can't change the way you do, and I can't help being myself. So we ended our young, young relationship, this morning. Sealing it with a kiss and some bit of extra. Go, little Vaniushka!

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There he goes again... being mysterious again... I couldn't get a hold of Vanya. I wonder how many other girls he's been entertaining. I guess up to this point, he's got me. I'm jealous. F*!!! Why did I start things that I know I can't end properly???

both sides, now

I passed!!! My thesis defense went really well. I was soooo happy, smiling from ear to ear. But that was just one side of the coin. As it turned out, yesterday was also my unlucky day for another reason. A super stupid thing happened, a totally messed up communication between Ivan and me that we ended up hurting each other unintentionally. We broke up. Isn't weird? We never officially dated, yet we broke up. I wrote him a message that hinted that intention if he couldn't straight things up for me. At around 9 p.m., he came to my place to explain what had happened. We talked. We hugged. "But you already broke up with me. And this isn't going anywhere anyway," he said. But what the hell? Who said we had to make it happen? So why not enjoy the moment while you can? So that was the agreement. And we stayed there holding each other till morning.

kick them asses, bitches!!!

My loves, Gina and Brian kicked each other a moment before they kicked the audience's ass in Ashes to Ashes, Monday, May 14, 2007.

a perfect pervert

Yeap, that's Vanya! A dirty, dirty boy!! The dirtiest I know in person. We had a 'sick' telephone conversation after my Ashes to Ashes show (which went soooo well, by the wayyy!!!) I was checking on him because he said he'd fallen off his bike (mwahahaha!!!). He lost balance having to carry a coat stand that I borrowed for my play. He said his knee bled and it hurt. Well, I felt bad. A little. Because it happened to this perfect pervert anyway. It seemed that the accident came hand in hand with his other sick behaviors tonight. He poked a nail he found under a couch on my palm. He kept doing it until he tried that on his own palm. "Ouch!" He's just a sick flirtatious bastard. No wonder he fell off his bike. He said I owed him a lunch and dinner for what had happened to him. Well, you need a couple of days before that happens, Vaniushka. Meanwhile, have a painful night!!!

O F!!! [fin de partie]

I think I finally have to accept the fact that I'm growing old and weary of life. Seriously. This "no-strings-attached" thing didn't really work for me. It sucks dicks. Sorry for the language. But it perfectly describes this situation. I'm used to reading signs, especially bad ones. It hurts me, but I have to face it, right? Then I know I will build my fortress again. I am worn out. Totally.